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And 2016 starts off pretty good…

I hope I didn’t just jinx myself with that title. Seriously, 2015 was terrible, horrible, no good, very bad year for me and I just want 2016 to BE GOOD. And so far it has been. My surgeon signed off on me having to see a home health nurse FINALLY 6 FREAKING MONTHS LATER, and several abscesses, ER visits and hospital stays later. But my original nurse got a new job so I got a new, not as good and basically bitch nurse that was very rough and made my wounds bleed a lot more than they should have been bleeding. So for me to finally having the OK to be discharged is a relief.

DJ is working full time, which means bills are getting paid, slowly and steady they are getting paid. Sometimes its weekly, others its bi weekly. But we are getting caught up. We even treated ourselves to a stereo system through Aaron’s and a new bedroom set (we needed a new bed, I was waking up in pain every day from that bed frame┬ábeing broken.)

My 31st birthday is the 24th. when did I get old? I mean old enough to have my child hood icons start dying off? Robin Williams? David Bowie? ALAN RICKMAN? I just can’t. I’ve been a fan of Rickman since he was the voice of god in Dogma. I fell in love with the tortured character of Severus Snape, and he brought it to life with his velvet voice that no other actor could, I had feels upon feels for the depressed robot in hitchhickers guide through the galaxy.

I woke up the night he died, at midnight and I couldn’t get to sleep until around 2 am. I felt a shift in the universe. A disturbance in the force, that the world would never be the same. First the Goblin King passed away and I’d been watching the Labyrinth with my kids, and listening to Bowie’s soundtracks and treasuring that he embraced the weird and accepted the oddities of life.

Rickman played the Villain. Or the Sarcastic. Or the Depressed. But in real life he was a kind man, he was generous. He was the kind of human being that I hope my sons grow up to be like. Daniel Radcliffe wrote that whenever you needed him (Rickman) he would drop whatever it was that he was doing and he’d be there.

The world lost a truly great man. This week we are all Slytherin.

And Alan Rickman is apparently watching a kickass concert up in heaven with Lenny, Bowie, and Queen’s lead singer… Just saying.

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2015 a year in review.

Geek PoweredWhat can I say about 2015. To go month by month would be tedious and rather boring. I mean come on. I’m a stay at home mother that until very recently had a very big problem and very long story that plagued a lot of my blog posts. And since that issues has thus been resolved on our end, I’d rather not talk about it here. This is my safe haven from the world. My voice and I won’t let that part of my real world life tarnish here. So moving on.

2015 broke me. I was completely destroyed this year. I felt like I had failed repeatedly as a mother, because I was too sick to care for my children. I was scared of being put back into the hospital after spending 7 weeks, and having 8 surgeries to save my life thanks to a complication rare as it was for an RNY gastric bypass patient to have. (2% of RNY gastric bypass patients have had this issues over all.)

I almost died 4 times had several emergency surgeries to fix what was going on with my body and here it is January 1st and I am still in daily agony thanks to a strangulated and encased hernia. I am facing another surgery to repair said hernia this summer and because the loose skin was part of the issue with the hernia happening in the first place, it will be removed.

After almost dying so many times I finally stood up for myself. Granted a lot of terrible things had to happen first but once the last straw fell and the camel’s back broke it was very clear to me that it was time to move on wards and upwards with out looking back.

The gas industry in my area never did pick up the way it was promised over and over again so DJ had no choice but to go back over the road. Thankfully the company he’s working with is very good about home time and if he needs to get home he needs to get home. I’m very thankful for this in many ways because I can talk to him daily on the cell phone and I know that we have steady income coming in. We are still in debt pretty good which is why I gave up my domains and have cut down on a lot of ‘wants’ vs ‘needs’. I did get a little bit nuts over Christmas but that’s a given considering the season.

But I am setting goals both personal, financial, and physical. DJ is working with me wholeheartedly on this and we are as always a team. I am forever grateful for this man.