So I blogged yesterday in the midst of child wrangling and doing house work (read:Dishes.) and making sure that things were taken out for dinner so I didn’t actually get a chance to link the blog post. I’ll do that after this post.
My goal is to do several gift guides this year, Mother’s day, Father’s Day, and of course next Christmas. I have one product on its way here that I and DJ are reviewing as a team which is super exciting. I’m also going to be adding the Simple Stories Carpe Diem Planner to the gift guide as well because even thought I purchased it 100% out of pocket I absolutely love this product and the rumors are that there is a new line coming this year.
All in all things are pretty quiet around here. Between not feeling well and just all around child shenanigans nothing really of report is going on.
I did go to Target and over spent just a tad so I’m going to have to wait on the planner society kits that I wanted for my birthday. Which is fine because bills do come first. That’s my big goal this year is to pay bills first before play and to set up a savings account. I really want to get a good amount going for my surgery this coming summer and for our wedding next year.
I’ve been working really hard to declutter and purdge what we do not use and what we do not need around here as well, and while its going fine, its also hard to do this with out DJ being here to make sure I’m not getting rid of something that he may want or need.
Such is life.
So Sunday R, Dj and I went down to the Greyhound station about 32 miles south of where we live to drop DJ off for his orientation Monday in Ohio. DJ had packed the night before, and gotten everything together. I sat on his lap and cuddled with him Sunday morning before his shower and we had John on our laps having some family cuddles as well and I noticed that my cheek was pretty wet, but I wasn’t crying.. yet.
Here I thought all this time that he was so excited to go back over the road, that he missed the life style so much and we’d been fighting so much over finances and such that I thought he wanted to.. but he didn’t. He was crying, literally falling apart because he didn’t want to leave me or the boys.
Well he got into the shower and went upstairs to get dressed and he was up there for awhile and I was down stairs with the Jason, John was upstairs with Daddy and I finally went up to see what was taking so long because it was getting close to time to go and here he was finding every excuse not to get on that bus, texting everyone he could think of for work ideas that were local and not over the road. While he was doing this he was crying, he didn’t want to go.
I kept telling him that it was only temporary and that this was a necessary evil right now but that I loved him very much and that I wasn’t going anywhere and that seeing him so emotional oddly made me feel better about losing him to the road, and the life style because I knew he didn’t want to go.
After I kissed him goodbye I went back home with R and had dinner and came home to put the kids to bed and got packed. By packed I mean, we still have to pack bandages into the drain sites of the penrose drain and the newly formed drain of the recently lanced fluid pocket site, walked the dog and went to bed.
I haven’t cried much at all, however the nightmares have been terrible. The first night Jason slept with me because he didn’t know what was going on and last night I got the bed all to myself which was nice, but at the same time was lonely. But the boys are handling things alright and so am I. We talk to DJ daily and we tell him we love him all the time. So until local work picks up this is life, this is the way things will be. I’m not pleased with it, but we will survive.
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Well, not a lot has changed on the home front. Accept that Dj is no longer getting working hours that work for us, supports us and keeps us going. With my income alone is just barely enough to pay rent.
So he’s looking to go over the road, or OTR. Since he has a class A CDL the jobs locally for local runs, are basically nonexistent. So we have very little choices in this, its either we sacrifice our time together now, or we loose everything. We’ve already applied for general state assistance, I’ve given up the domain, and other paid hosting blogs and started this. Which I’m ok with.
We don’t have cable either. I’m sure I could get rid of the internet for awhile, but I really want to try to make a go of the pain blogging thing. I’m sure I’ll have to get a domain for this, but its worth a shot right?
JM and JA has been growing so fast. JA is a whopping 13 lbs, he’s 4 months old and is doing beautifully. JM is getting to that age where he’s speaking more clearly, but he’s also making up words, and pushing boundaries.
This is both good and bad. He will run up and hug you one minute and the next he’s smacking you and earning himself a time out. This morning he woke up in such a bad mood that it was unreal. We immediately put him back to bed, and that seemed to help for about 2 hours after he woke up. Now he’s back down asleep again because he was so miserable. Such is the age of the terrible almost 2’s.